Ainsley’s 9 Month Update

This month update came at me a million miles an hour. I feel like it was just yesterday she was turning 6 months, where on earth did 9 months come from?!

She’s such a busy body, and learning new things everyday. Every time I look at her she’s doing, eating, or babbling something new. I never thought watching a little human learn could be so amazing.

At 9 months now, Ainsley is full on crawling, if she wants to be somewhere there is nothing stopping her! She’ll crawl over obstacles to get what she wants.

She’s also pulling up on anything and everything she can, as well as cruising from item to item to get to her desired destination.

She won’t let you sit her down most times, she loves to stand or if you hold her hands she will walk assisted with you. Sitting is not (nor has it ever been) her favourite.

I’m not sure how tall she is but she’s 18lbs. She’s still on formula, but also enjoys lots of finger foods now! She really likes mango, watermelon, eggs, yogurt, cereal with fruit and cinnamon, rice cakes, and pasta! She doesn’t like traditional sippy cups, but LOVES the munchkin cups with the straws, she’ll drink out of them all day if you let her.

She says Mamma and Dadda. She loves to babble and screams when she’s happy.

This month she’s been such a Daddy and Grandpa’s girl, if she has the choice she’ll choose them over anyone else in the room! It’s very adorable but it’d be nice to get some love sometime soon…

Her favourite toys are the television remote and the blinds… She wants pretty much everything she’s not supposed to touch, including electrical cords so it’s time to baby proof.

As for sleep she’s been a dream! She sleeps all the way through now, rarely wakes for a bottle. So I can’t complain on that front, as well as she’s still taking 2 naps during the day totalling to 2 hours. Getting her down is not always easy, she’s always been a sleep fighter, but once she’s down she’s out!

She’s at such a fun age and her little personality is really starting to form. She is very vocal and expressive when she’s happy or sad. She’s starting to really enjoy certain people’s company and pick favourite toys and activities.

I can’t wait to see what the next month brings, she’s growing everyday and it’s so exciting.

Preparing for Ainsley’s First Easter

If you know me you know I plan ahead and am pretty much always prepared a month earlier then needed for just about everything.

Ever since I had Ainsley I’ve been well on top of holidays, milestones, and events. Getting her gifts, outfits, and generally just prepared way in advance.

That being said I’ve already prepped for her first Easter (is anyone shocked?)

Easter is one of my favourite holidays aside from Christmas of course, but definitely a close second!

Ainsley will still be too young for a traditional egg hunt. So we will be following a family tradition of mine and getting her a small bundle of Easter gifts, like my parents used to do for my brother and I!

I’ll share with you in this blog what we will be getting Ainsley, and what she will be wearing for Easter! Hopefully if you have a bub who is not quite egg hunting age yet this helps you out!

First off what we got Ainsley;

To put her Easter gifts and goodies in I found this super cute gift sack online! There wasn’t and embroidered option, but I would love to get her name stitched on it, for future easters!

To poke out the top of her sack we got her this gorgeous keep sake Bunny from Adairs. It’s a little more of an expensive stuffed animal and obviously there are cheaper bunny stuffies, but I wanted to get her a nice one for her first Easter!

She’s also desperately been needing some new toys so we decided to do a restock for Easter! We tried to shop for things with higher play value. We got her some puzzles, blocks, and some other toys. Here are some of the things we got her;

I tried to look for things that can grow with her and that she’ll be able to play with for a while! Opposed to an electronic toy she’ll be sick of next week (like her toys now…)

We got her a couple other things to fill up her sack but I’ll move on to her Easter outfit now!

I bought her dress a while ago and have already tried it on her, but it’s a beautiful white lace dress.

As for her head piece we had to get her some bunny ears of course, so I stumbled on these and just had to snatch a pair!

I’m so excited for Ainsley’s first Easter! Hopefully this gave some helpful insight for you and your little ones if you were as stumped as I was!

Ainsley’s 8 Month Update

Typing that title almost made me cry!

I cannot believe my little one is 8 months old! I don’t know why but it seems like every month goes faster and faster. Every time I look at her she’s doing something new, it’s incredible, exciting, and sad, all at the same time. A part of me just wants her to stay my little one forever, but of course I love even more to watch her grow… As sad as it is!

This month has been a whirl wind, we’ve been so busy that I seriously looked at the calendar and wondered where on earth January went…

The biggest milestone this month for little Bub is the new addition to her babbling vocab, she now says “Mama!” She’s pretty obsessed with saying it and I die a little inside of happiness every time she mutters it. I’m pretty positive at this point she thinks everyone is “Mama” but hey, I’ll take what I can get!

As for things on the crawling front, still a no go! Poor girl is trying desperately to crawl but thus far can only successfully go backwards. She becomes pretty frustrated and tends to give up and just roll to where she wants to go. I mean as long as she gets there right!

Her leg strength is pretty good, she can stand up against things all by herself (for a little that is, till she gives up.) If you hold her hands she’ll take a few assisted steps, or if you put her hands on her walker she’ll also take a few steps (assisted.) Something tells me she may just skip crawling and go straight to walking, since she seems may more interested in standing/walking over crawling.

She’s also started to try and pull herself up to standing, she can get about half way but still needs a little oomph!

She’s such a wiggly girl it’s hard nowadays to get a nice picture, she constantly is trying to grab everything in site and move around!

I’m not sure her weight but she fits into a true size 0 (6-12months.) She’s petite but eats heaps! She really loves yogurt, frozen berries, Bircher muesli, and still hates veggies.

She’s still on formula, but also has 3 meals a day of cereals, baby oats, purée foods, mashed foods, or whatever I put into her mesh feeder bag! This month we’re going to start more finger foods so wish me luck!

As for sleep, she still is napping twice a day, once in the morning and again in the afternoon. Then sleeps for about 10-12 hours at night, sometimes waking early morning for a tiny top up, then goes back down.

Overall she is a very happy Bub, loves to play with her toys, smack things, make noise, and sleep! She also loves to imitate people’s noises, enjoy’s laughing at people’s dance moves, and watching tennis or cricket with Daddy! She loves to smile at people and talk (or scream) at you.

She’s such a good baby and makes my life as a Mum so enjoyable. I look forward to spending everyday with her, even the bad ones, as tough as they are!

I cannot wait to see where the next month leads, so much to learn, she’s just beginning!

Postpartum Check-In

Well tomorrow I will be officially 8 months post partum and honestly it has absolutely flown by. I feel like it was yesterday that Miss. Ainsley blessed the world with her presence but it’s already been 8 whole months! How on earth is she only 4 months away from turning ONE!?

Time is truly a thief.

Tomorrow’s post will be all about Ainsley and her 8 month update but today is all about me! And how I’m doing now that I’m pretty much out of the “just had a baby” stage.

Now that I’m 8 months post partum I finally can say that I feel seriously amazing. My hormones have finally balanced out, I’ve had my first cycle (oh joy,) and my hair loss is finally starting to slow down (which means crazy baby hairs.)

The most annoying thing lately has been my baby hairs, they are just out here wilding and completely out of control. There’s no taming these puppies! They do whatever they please, even with hair spray and all. I’ve just learned to accept the new growth and hope for the best…

Oh and not to mention the annoyance that was my first period. Well let’s just say after bleeding for over 10 weeks after having Ainsley I was less than thrilled to start having a regular period again. Sorry if this is TMI but I just want to warn all you mammas out there the first period is AWFUL! Mother Nature comes back full force, with vengeance. So be stocked up on Tylenol, hot packs, and chocolate, you’ll need em’!

As for my body, I am finally starting to put back on some muscle and lose stubborn mum pouch! It’s taken me the entire 8 months but I feel less squishy for the first time since having Ainsley so that’s nice. I’ve been working my flat little mum butt so hard in the gym it’s nice to finally see some results! Its harder now than before I had Ainsley to put on muscle and lean out since I lost quite a bit of muscle while pregnant but I’m being kind to myself and trusting the process!

I also now feel like I’ve found a little bit of a groove as a Mum and don’t feel so lost anymore. The first 6 months post partum are definitely the hardest or at least we’re for me! While my hormones were still bouncing around, but once they settled and I finally got settled it’s been a world of difference. It took 8 months to feel confident in myself and myself as a Mum, so if you are post partum don’t try to rush things, your body and mind will balance out and you’ll know once you’ve settled.

It’s hard to explain but the months leading up to now I’ve still felt that “post partum blah” whereas now I feel completely out of the post baby stage and feel like myself again. I’ve been happier, more confident, and been up to going out and doing more with Ben, friends, or even just Ainsley and I!

It’s a great feeling to find your feet as a Mum, even if some days I still feel like a hot mess! It’s all a part of the journey we call motherhood.

My experience postpartum (aside from extremely bad bleeding) has been pretty good in comparison to some people’s. I’m very lucky and happy to be where I am at 8 months post-Ainsley. My pregnancy, birth, and after birth, have all gone so much better than I had imagined, it ALMOST makes me want another.

But I’ll just stick with my one 😉

Wishing all you Mammas the best on your post partum journey! Remember everybody is different and every experience will differ, this is just mine.

The Story of Ainsley’s Birth

I get asked this question by pretty much everyone when I tell them I have a little one. Especially by other moms out there, they all wanna know Ainsley’s birth story. But even those who don’t have kids are very intrigued in the birthing process.

Not only will I tell my experience with giving birth but I’ll tell you what I think helped contribute to having such a good experience.

Keep in mind everyone is different, every baby, every body, and sometimes no matter how you prepare things can go in a complete different direction! So prepare the best you can, but expect the unexpected. Because birth is unpredictable.

Ainsley’s original due date was May 17th, then later on due to her size it was changed to May 24th! She was taking her sweet time because I was over due when I had her.

My contractions started the night of May 28th. All night I was tossing and turning in pain, but I thought they were just braxton hicks contractions so I didn’t think too much of them.

On the 29th I had an appointment with my OB in the morning who said I was still only 2cm’s. I told him about the contractions and he said he’d give me a membrane sweep (they basically stick fingers in your hoo-hah and try to disturb things) and hopefully that would get something going!

And it did! My contractions got stronger and closer together. I timed them all day and just relaxed on the couch breathing through the pain.

I had dinner with my family and started to get ready for bed. I had a gut feeling that she may come the next day or even that night so I got all of our bags ready to go.

I sat in bed with Ben eating twizzlers in between contractions, until it was time for sleep. Falling asleep was pretty tough, I was in a lot of pain but not enough where I wanted to go to hospital yet. I had heard so many Moms say they showed up to the hospital at 4cms and it took HOURS to progress. I much preferred being in my own home and my own bed dealing with the pain rather than in a hospital (hospitals creep me out.)

I finally fell asleep but was pretty restless. At around 3am I awoke from my sleep to feeling like I had peed myself… I ran to the bathroom kinda confused because I genuinely thought I had peed myself… I yelled out to poor Ben saying “I THINK I PEED MYSELF?! OR MY WATER BROKE? IS THIS MY WATER?” Poor Ben had no idea, and I don’t know why I asked but whatever.

I went upstairs to ask my Mom thinking she’d know but nope. Her waters never broke so she was just as clueless as us. It was certainly not what you see in the movies, there was no gush of water, it didn’t pour out like I thought it would. It literally was like I peed a lil.

After my water broke I stayed upstairs with my mom, Ben, and Ben’s mom. Just sitting on the couch dealing with the most pain my body has ever felt. Sitting wasn’t comfortable, standing wasn’t comfortable, nothing was comfortable. Everything hurt, and when a contraction came it literally took my breath away.

I got to the point where I was convinced I was going to vomit. I was huddled over my toilet wincing in pain and dry heaving. Looking back now I seriously don’t know how I coped, but you really don’t have a choice… That baby’s coming!

At about 3:45am, just 45 minutes after my water broke I decided it was time to go to the hospital. I couldn’t take the pain or pressure anymore and wanted the good stuff (drugs, I’m referring to drugs.)

The drive there was TERRIBLE. Every turn, stop, bump, hurt so much. My whole body was just in so much pain. Once we got to the hospital Ben had to get me a wheelchair because at this point my contractions were off the charts. I couldn’t stand up straight let alone walk.

He wheeled me as fast as he could to the birthing unit where they checked me in to a temporary bed to see how far along I was and see if I was ready to be admitted.

I was 6cm, it was both scary and relieving to hear. Terrified because I was going to give birth soon, but relieved that the pain would soon be done and I’d have my little bundle of joy in the world.

They admitted me immediately and started wheeling me over to my new room. Once we got there it was about 4:30am and things were moving fast. I put my gown on and the nurse asked me if I wanted an epidural and I responded with a very eager “YES PLEASE!”

She went to go get the set up for the epidural. But in the meantime I was in more pain I ever thought was humanly possible. I felt so much pressure I was convinced I was going to pee myself, I didn’t want to walk to the toilet because I was in so much pain so I even announced to everyone in the room I apologise if I pee on the floor but I ain’t moving!

I was hunched over leaning on the bed (the position I felt most comfortable.) It was then that I knew it was happening, I don’t think I’ll ever be able to explain the feeling, I don’t think anyone can when you know your baby’s coming. There’s just a switch in your body that says “it’s go time.” I screamed (very loudly) “I NEED TO PUSH!” And my mom yelled at me not to, but honestly I didn’t have a choice my body was doing the pushing and I couldn’t stop.

We hit the button to call the nurse who came rushing in, she also yelling not to push! She kept telling me I wasn’t far enough along and that it was dangerous to push at 6cm. She told me to relax, lay down, and wait for the epidural. But she would check me just incase.

She checked, and the look on her face was one I’ll never forget, just utter shock! She told me I was 9 and a half cm along and that there was no time for an epidural we needed to set up for birth STAT.

I mean I’m not gonna say I told everyone so but… I did, I told y’all she was coming! 🤷🏻‍♀️

The nurse got everything and came back to the room and told me the OB was in a C-section and won’t be making it to deliver the baby. At that point I truly didn’t care, I just wanted to get this baby out safe and sound!

So we got in position and started to push. Let me just tell you, pushing is the least of your worries. Once you go through a couple hours of contractions and pain you’ll be so ready and relieved to be pushing. I mean don’t get it twisted, it HURTS, a lot. But it’s so true what moms say, that your body knows what to do.

After only 30 minutes of pushing (which felt like 916372 hours) Ainsley came into this world May 30th at 5:40am in the morning, weighing a lovely 7lbs.

Once they put her on my beautiful little self on my chest (and she shit on me…) I thought it was all over, but BOY WAS I WRONG.

No one prepared me for post labour pains. No one even told me they were a thing?! Gee thanks Mom…

My after birth was very very bad. Probably my pay back for having such a quick birth. I had excessive and very bad bleeding. My placenta wasn’t coming out so they had to give me something so that it would, and thank good it worked and they didn’t have to do any surgery or procedure which they were setting up for.

I was shivering and shaking uncontrollably. They put me on an IV to give me something to stop the bleeding, but I was in so much pain it almost was worse than the birth process itself! I couldn’t sit up for a couple hours which made me kinda sad because I wanted to do immediate skin to skin with Ainsley but my bleeding and pain was so bad I wasn’t able to. So Ben had to strip down and do it, thanks Ben 😂

Once I was stable and the drugs kicked in I was finally able to sit up and hold the beautiful girl who just made me a Mamma.

Ainsley had no major health concerns, which as a new mom is your biggest concern. You just want to hear that your baby is okay.

The only thing with Ainsley was because of how fast she came out and how, she ended up pinching a nerve in her lip. You can still to this day notice it when she smiles or screams but the doctors said she should grow out of it!

The birth and after birth was extremely painful, but I would do it a million times over for Ainsley. I’m glad I did it naturally without any drugs (as painful as it was) because I got to have the full experience which some moms who have to have cesareans don’t have the choice to!

A lot of people are shocked at how quick my birth was especially as a first time Mom. We got to the hospital at around 3:50ish am and Ainsley was born at 5:40am. During my pregnancy I cared for and prepped my body for birth which in my opinion I think helped!

Here’s some of the things I did that I read would help with the birthing process that personally worked for me.

Staying active during pregnancy, I worked out at home and in the gym from 20 weeks until the week Ainsley was born! It kept me feeling good and kept my body and muscles ready for birth! They say giving birth is the biggest workout ever, and it’s true!

Walking, I walked a lot! Walking kept things moving and kept my joints and muscles nice and limber.

Stretching, don’t neglect stretching as a preggo Mamma! I know it’s not easy and can be very uncomfortable but it definitely helped. Doing pelvic and leg stretches not only felt relieving but helped during the birth process to feel more comfortable.

I ate a (mostly) healthy diet. I’m not sure if that had anything to do with it but I did my best to treat my body like a temple while I was pregnant. Obviously with the occasional donut or sour candy because cravings! But I looked at my pregnancy as a prep, a preparation for birth. I did my best to prepare my body for what was to come. And I think it paid off!

I’m very happy that I was blessed enough to be active throughout my pregnancy because I know a lot can’t because of a multitude of reasons. So before doing anything always make sure to talk to your doctor/OB/Midwife.

All in all I had a very good experience considering how some pregnancies and births go. Yes it hurt and yes it was gross, but it brought me the most beautiful thing in the whole world and for that I am forever grateful of my experience. I couldn’t have done it without my support system so a massive appreciation shout out to my lovely partner Ben, my amazing mother, my awesome Dad and Ben’s wonderful mamma. They all made the experience that much more special and bearable!

I hope you enjoyed my birth story and I would love love love to hear yours! So feel free to inbox me on Fb, Instagram, or email me! I find birth stories so interesting and special.

Ainsley’s 7 Month Update

Well, Ainsley is officially over half a year, my little monkey turned 7 whole months today.

I’m not crying, your crying…

Ok maybe I shed a tiny tear while I cuddled her this morning…

Shes growing so much every single day both physically and mentally. It’s so hard to keep up with everything going on, she’s such a little busy body!

Now that Ainsley is 7 months, I’m not sure her exact weight but she is now starting to fit into 6-12 month clothing! Her shoes are still 0-3 or sometimes 3-6 shoes. She’s pretty petite for a 7 month old, but healthy nonetheless.

Ainsley now has 2 teeth, her bottom front teeth. She did so well with teething we barely knew they were coming in! Such a little trooper she is! She loves to bite anything and everything she can with her little teeth, we call her Ainsley shark.

She’s still on formula (obviously) as well as puréed foods and mashed foods. She loves apples, bananas, figs, oatmeal, avocado, acai, and any berries! We also let her chew on sticks of boiled vegetables, baby teething bread sticks, and she loves when we put a variety of things in her mesh feeder bags. She loves food, as long as it’s not carrots… Girl hates carrots.

She sits up all on her own very strong and very well, only topples over if she’s super lazy haha!

Still no crawling but she is itching to move! She hates being still, she wants to stand on things constantly, or have you hold her up so she can stomp around! If my guess is correct I think she’ll be walking before 12 months. She’s so active I can’t imagine her being immobile for too long.

Her sleep is going extremely well, generally she sleeps from 9:00pm straight till 7:00am but occasionally gets up at around 2:00am for a quick top up then goes back down! So no complaints on that front! Phewf…

She naps twice a day, once in mid morning and one in late afternoon. Sometimes she skips her nap in the afternoon which makes her such a grump! But it’s been hard this holiday season because we’ve been running around like crazy people.

Overall she’s such a fun baby. She loves to play with her toys, she loves hanging out with her family and friends, she LOVES dogs, and most of all she loves to chew things (especially blankets.)

I say this every month but I truly cannot wait for the months to come. Watching her personality form and seeing her grow is the best feeling in the world.

The love and happiness she brings to my life is like no other, I’m so proud to be the Mamma of such an amazing little human.

Ainsley’s First Christmas!

Well now that the craziness of Christmas is all over I figured I’d tell you how Ainsley’s First Christmas went!

Honestly, my expectations were not high as she’s only 7 months old. But she was so much more involved than I thought she’d be!

She loved unwrapping the gifts and trying to chew the paper. All the toys that she got she instantly was interested in! She was so spoiled by family, she is one lucky and loved little girl.

She now has so many cool toys to play with it’s so much fun watching her explore them all and be interested in more interactive toys.

After we opened gifts at our house, we went to Ben’s parents house to do gifts with them and secret Santa! It was so nice for Ainsley to be surrounded by all her Aussie family, they all had a blast watching her play with her new things!

For the rest of the afternoon we just had lunch and got prepared for Christmas dinner at Aunt Kim’s!

Ainsley’s First Christmas dinner was a success. Aunt Kim even made her her own special sweet potato purée, yum!

Thanks again for the amazing dinner Kim!

She was such a happy baby all day being surrounded by family. She’s been so excited and happy her sleep schedule has been out of whack since Christmas!

I’m so happy she had such a great Christmas and got to spend it with her family.

I’m so excited for next year and the years to come, as she grows Christmas will just get increasingly more fun. It’s amazing to me how much more I enjoyed Christmas having a little one than before I had Ainsley, seeing her smile and seeing how much fun she has around family makes my heart so full!

I hope you all had an amazing Christmas, ate yummy food, and spent quality time with the people you love!

Merry Christmas from my little family to yours! 🎄❤️

Moving Away

This is a touchy, sad, and unpleasant topic for me but I figured since I just left Canada for my last time for at least a year it was a good time to talk about it.

For those unfamiliar with my situation, my partner Ben and I live here in Melbourne with Ainsley, and all of my family and friends are back in Canada.

When we learned I was pregnant with Ainsley I was on a working holiday visa here in Aus with plans to eventually go back home, finish school, y’know that whole thing.

But falling pregnant obviously threw a wrench into things! We had to make a decision of where we were going to live permanently, and where we would start our lives as a family.

It took us a quite a bit to finally decide on either Canada or Australia. For a while we thought it was going to be Canada, but at the end of the day it really didn’t make sense to up root Ben from his job. He has a lot of good opportunities with his job and we decided to put our trust in that and move here to Australia.

It’s never easy telling your parents you’re moving across the world, to literally the farthest possible destination. But it’s even harder telling them when you’ll be also taking their first and only grandchild.

My heart feels so heavy when I talk about leaving my parents/Ainsley’s grandparents. Because I really freaking love my parents, they are the best parents out there hands down. They’ve taught me so much and truly made me who I am today. Never have the ever hesitated to bend over backwards to do something for me and for that I am forever grateful. I’m not sure if I’ll ever be able to properly thank them for everything they’ve done for Ainsley and I but my heart will never forget.

As much as I love them, I miss them a million times more.

Leaving the first time was tough, but leaving with Ainsley is a whole other situation…

In the times Ainsley has been in Canada, I’ve been blessed to be able to see how amazing and loving my parents are as Grandparents. It makes me smile when I think about them with Ainsley, but it also makes me very sad that they are going to miss out on so much by being so far away.

I know how sad they are that they can’t be the involved grandparents that they had always hoped for. But I’m lucky that they do their best with the situation considered.

I’ve made a promise to myself to not leave them behind. I send them pictures constantly and let them know how Ainsley is doing. I’m determined as Ainsley grows to make this long distance grandparenting work.

The same goes for her godmother Maggie, and her Uncle Shaun. Both extremely important people in my life, who it hurts me beyond belief to leave behind. But I know how much they love Ainsley and I so I know they’ll forever be in my life regardless of how many miles are between us.

Moving to the other side of the world without your family or friends is tough, it’s sad, and sometimes can feel very lonely. I get pretty down sometimes when I think about my future here and can’t see my parents living right around the corner like I always imagined.

It’s the little things they’ll miss out on that make me the most sad. Family dinners, holiday get togethers, game nights, weekends at grandmas, trips to the zoo, birthdays, things like that, that they won’t get to experience with her unless they’re here visiting… I can’t say it gets easier to think about, because it doesn’t, I’m always going to miss my family and a little part of me will always wish they were here. But I have learned to cope with it, because the reason I’m here is for a better life for my little family, which is my main priority.

I do love Australia, I’m blessed to live here, with an amazing partner, and a beautiful daughter. I am so lucky to have the second family that I have here- don’t get me wrong! I’m excited and happy to live here and to be starting our life as a family of three.

But that being said they still aren’t my parents, it’s not the same, and it never will fill the little hole in my heart that appeared when I left them.

Fears About Raising A Little One

It’s no shock that being a parent is terrifying, raising a human to be a functioning part of society is a big task.

There’s no way to tell how you’re doing until it’s too late, which when you think about it is pretty nerve wracking! So many opinions and choices out there on pretty much every aspect involved with raising a little one it’s nearly impossible to know which is the best choice for your child.

How much technology should you introduce? Is it wrong to let them watch TV at a young age? Should you feed them only organic? What about a plant based diet? What kind of skin products to use? Will these cleaning products hurt them? What’s the best car seat? Are they getting enough nutrients? Do they feel loved enough? Am I spending enough quality time with them? Are they happy?

All things that have crossed my mind in regards to making choices for Ainsley and just raising her in general.

As her parent it’s my job to chose what’s best for her and make her the happiest I can and ensure she lives life to the fullest, on both a mental and physical scale.

As parents we want the best for our baby’s but how do we know what’s best?

Well, we don’t. No one does. Sorry to burst your bubble!

All we can do is try. We can do the best we can and give our little ones what we think they need and want to thrive in this world.

At the end of the day no two kids are the same and everyone’s way of raising their little one is going to be different.

There really is no “right vs. wrong” it’s just what works best for you and what you think is best for your child.

If your child is healthy and happy then you’re doing okay Mamma.

There will always be a new article, book, blog, or person telling you a different or “better” way to do something and there’s no harm in doing some research. Look into all avenues and make the decisions you think are best.

Don’t let people fear monger you into thinking a certain way. Stay true to your values and beliefs in life. What you think is important in child rearing may not be so to others.

It’s scary being a parent, especially in today’s society with everything going on.

My wish is for Ainsley to grow up in a healthy, positive environment, and be the happiest girl she can be. I want to teach her valuable life skills in order to grow up to be a strong, kind, and independent woman. I want the best for her now and for the future, but sometimes I’m not so confident that I’m doing my best to make that happen, it’s tough.

But as of today Ainsley is happy and healthy so I must be doing something right!

It’s normal to doubt your choices as a parent but like I said previously, we won’t know if it works until it’s too late. I’ve found it best to take what others say and look into it, do your own research, but when it comes down to it I always trust my Mamma Bear instinct!

Ben and I are new at the whole parenting thing. But with every decision we make for Ainsley we put thought and research into it. All we can do is our best and hope one day it was all good enough!

Ainsley’s First Christmas Season

For all my Canadian followers, if you aren’t aware, Australia and North America’s seasons are reverse. Which yes means I’m currently in summer down here!

I mean I’m not complaining since I get to skip out on the whole ice, snow, slush, freezing rain and crap. BUT I will say it is a little odd to be wearing shorts and turning the air conditioning on 6 days before Christmas.

On a more serious note, I’m so excited to be spending our Christmas this year with the addition of Ainsley. Last year when I was pregnant I was so excited for her to be with us for the holidays.

Even though she has absolutely no idea what the heck is going on, Ben and I still agreed we wanted to make it special for her! I mean it’s really more for our memories but hey…

In Canada she got to decorate a gingerbread house (more like try to destroy it like a mini Godzilla,) and make Christmas crafts by using her little hand and feet prints! While we were in Canada we also got her Santa pictures done, which turned out adorable!

Now that we’re in Aus, we decorated the tree for the first time as a family in our own place (and even let Ainsley put a decoration on.) She finds the tree very interesting.

Ben and I have put lots of effort into picking out gifts that we know will be useful since she is only (almost) 7 months but also that she’ll love to play with. I’ve put plenty of time into wrapping them pretty even when in reality she’ll just try to chew the paper anyways!

Her stocking is all packed and ready for Christmas morning, and her Christmas PJ’s are washed, folded, and ready for the 24th!

As you can tell I’m pretty excited for her first Christmas…

Aside from what we got her, I’m so excited to spend Christmas Eve & Day with all of our Australian family and for them all to be a part of Ainsley’s first Christmas!

She’s such a happy baby when she’s surrounded by family and friends so Christmas will be no exception, I’m sure she’s going to have a blast!

If you have a little one this holiday season don’t feel silly for wanting to make it special! Even if they won’t remember it, you always will.